Victory or Fail?

Thank you so much for your support yesterday.  I can't begin to tell you how hard it was to get through the day especially when I realized the Mr was ready for a cupcake bender as well.  That doesn't bode well when you've both got frosting on the brain.  You know how men are, they want to fix you so you're not sad anymore.  He said he didn't know what to do for me and said we could go get cupcakes because he wanted them too.  (Because in his mind cupcakes=happy wife)  I told him as I was eating breakfast "look, I need you to be strong for me and not offer me any damn cupcakes to make me happy.  I'm a grown friggin' woman and I don't need a cupcake to make me feel better.  I'm just going to have to get through this."  He thanked me for giving specific instructions and suggested we go putt putting so off we went.

A different kind of water hazard.

I'm pretty sure he's judging me.

The Mr putting his blue ball.

Photographic proof of my hole in one!

It never happened again.  :-(

This place has seen better days.  I know this looks "rustic" but trust me, it's an insurance company's worst nightmare.

Heh heh. 

We went to a specialty store after and I'm going to pretend that my nutmeg didn't expire in 2003 a long time ago.  You ever do that?  Like you think you've replaced a spice within the past year or two and it's been way longer?  

I got some rosemary too since I was almost out & it was "more herbs, less salt day."  (I can't make that stuff up!)

Then came the statement.  "We're going to the cupcake place we've been wanting to try and if they have mini's we'll get one or split one."  The Mr agreed.  Now many would consider this a fail.  Here's why I know it's not.

1)  It didn't come from an emotional place or a feeling I was trying to bury under icing.  I planned my calories for the day and they were WAY low.  I mean the kind of low that can screw up your metabolism based on my range.  I'd left 300 calories to play with.

2)  This was a place we genuinely wanted to try but are never on that side of town to justify it.  I passed about 50 different sweets in that specialty store from cakes to muffins to donuts to candy and none of it looked good.  If I wanted to go batchit on sweets I had ample opportunity which is how I knew my cupcake craving was no longer about an emotional need but we had the calories available and we decided to take them.

3)  These cupcakes were under 300 calories based on size and the ones I wanted would've easily been 2 of them at about 1500 calories.

I know this probably all sounds like justification but I think people who have used food in the past know the difference between having something because you want it and have the calories available and shoveling stuff in your pie cupcake hole because you don't like how your week is going.  They didn't have mini's but she was so happy to have customers, I couldn't walk out and the size of the cupcakes were slightly smaller than homemade.  I got vanilla and he got chocolate.  I took one bite and didn't care for it so I was going to throw it away and I gave it to him and he actually liked mine but not his.  He gave me half and I actually liked his over mine.  The lady was super nice (a cute little Asian lady and her adorable son who sat quietly reading his book)  and I don't think her business is doing too well so I know she really appreciated our business.  Well that and she said so and that she hoped to see us again.  I don't know that we'd need to go back but we will give her a good online review because I would love to see her succeed.

I ended up at 1823 calories for the day (my range is 1800-2200 calories) so I'd say being at the low end of my range along with burning 1040 calories in our circuit workout is pretty darn good.  (Actually working out with a low grade migraine to boot!)

Today is the service so we're on the road.  We're going to do everything we can to be good.  I have a pork roast in the crockpot so we can have sliders and brussels sprouts when we come home so it'll make it easier to turn down a calorie laden dinner.

Have you ever given in to a craving in a controlled manner to take away it's power over you?  When/if you mini golf, what color ball are you?

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