Happy Friday everyone! I hope you had a wonderful week and are ready for your weekend. I...yeah. So, I started this month as any other and will end it likely being an orphan. Within three weeks we've gone from suspected stroke or maybe UTI that went to the kidneys to terminal cancer and palliative care. I am drowning. I knew I would be hard eventually...in like 10 years. But to have a bomb dropped and be out of hope in less than a month is just too much to bear.
I really tried but this is all I could get to for:
Tired of Waking Up to Pee at Night? Do This One Yoga Pose Before Bed (I do this while brushing my teeth in the morning. I don't know why I didn't think to do it when brushing them at night.)
15 Silent Signs Your Body Might Be in Big Trouble (Yes. This.)
Crystallization Happens Honey! (How to enjoy or 'fix' crystallized honey. I think some crystallized honey on some soft bread could be quite the treat!)
How to Thrive When Everything Feels Terrible (Thrive? Hell, survive is the name of the game!)
Why Losing a Parent Hurts So Much, No Matter Your Age (I am not ready yet here I am.)
Please excuse any typos. I literally am doing this at 5:30am with no sleep after a sob session that has left me with extreme face pain and my proofreader is sawing logs beside me. Our plan for the weekend is spending as much time with Mom while she's still here. I can feel my body electrified with cortisol and inflammation. I am terrified, angry, sad, hopeless, but most of all loved. The sweet, weak smile Mom gives when I see her fills my heart. She told the Mr and I to sit at the end of her bed so she could see us both. It was like if she was going to die, she wanted us to be the last thing she saw. Sorry... going to go to the bathroom and bawl again.
I hope you have a great weekend and if they're still around, call your Mom.
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She is a mother to me as well. Ever since our first date when I met her and she really did treat me like that from day one, as if she knew we were right for each other and didn't question it. I love that woman and have been so blessed to be a part of life with her. I am honored to be by her side as she goes through this but I do wish it hadn't come to this so quickly without her even getting the chances she deserves.
ReplyDeleteI am so very sorry you're going through this pain. It's horrible and gut-wrenching, and there's no relief for it. Sending you both many, many hugs, and kisses for mom. xoxoxo
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