Tuesday, December 27, 2011
And then I went insane...
I know one thing, there will be a rule for next year, no f*cking candy in the stockings if it's stuff we can get any time of year. We have to pick ONE candy and we split it, period. Not three different kinds plus what my mom gets us. I ate crap I didn't even want because it was there. That is NOT how I'm going into this year, sabotaging myself. I'm not going to spend time relosing weight I've already lost, that's not productive and it's not acceptable. I thought yesterday was supposed to be an "on track" day but the Mr dumped his stocking and started rifling through his candy somehow I felt like "well if he's going to do it, so am I!" But I never do anything small so I did equal to and greater than...like the math problem I am. My holiday depression had kicked in FIERCE as soon as we got back from Christmas with my family and you couple that a healthy dose of PMS and hormones and it was like an out of body experience. I swear it was like the healthy me was hog tied and an evil drone took over while I was forced to watch, yelling "noooooo!" from behind my gag. Welcome to the big failure of 2011.
You can prepare all you want but in the end, sometimes temptation just wins, not once or twice but three times. I suppose the only victory I can claim is I did exercise and not break our streak. Well that and dumping the rest of the cookies in the trash so I couldn't screw myself up another day until planned treats on vacation from some of our favorite places. My instinct is to beat myself up over it and tell myself what a failure I am, oh wait, I guess I already did that above but it's done. There's nothing I can do to take it all back and I just have to move forward with new rules in place for next year since I'm not looking to spend a third Christmas in a row feeling the way I have the past 2 Christmases. I will hop on the scale and see the damage and do what I need to in order to rectify it. Period.
Now I'm off to drink my water and tell this attempted cold to take an effin' hike.
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