You know when you try to take advantage of a burst of creative energy because you know how rare that urge strikes? Then comes a point about three-quarters of the way through that you're just like "done. Tappin' out."
I'm there.
It's not that I don't want to finish what I started, I just want someone else to finish it. If I see another paint brush or have to pick caulk from under my fingers one more time, I'm going insane. (Too late.)
It doesn't help that going into week four of house projects that my body has unfurled the white flag. Because of said projects, important things like PT have been put on the back burner and then you throw bending down a lot and being in weird positions into the mix and my legs are not doing well. The tightness is ungodly and even starting each morning with a massage from the calf down does nothing which tells me it's higher up. As much as I'd like to be able to give myself a butt and/or quad massage the way this woman teaches, I can't do it on myself. (I actually cried watching her calf massage at how relieving it looked.) I'm out of massage gift certificates and whilst I love my therapist, she seems to skimp on the full body part of the full body massage because my legs didn't get much attention even on a two-hour session two weeks ago. The Mr was kind enough to do a hip to quad stretch/massage on me after I burst into tears on his lunch hour and then I cried harder because the pain was so bad. The body revolt is making me not want to do much.
I knew I wasn't in any shape to do anything strenuous for a workout so I suggested walking. Then I remembered a few steps in that I'm breaking in new shoes and new insoles and there is always a transition period for that. Needless to say I have a chiro appointment tomorrow so he can attempt to de-knot and ultrasound me. I haven't been to see him since before our vacation and that's not good because I need ultrasound at least once a month to keep that tissue pliable. Yeesh. What I wouldn't give for a normal body.
But today I have no choice but to get back to the grind and finish my project because I have an eight foot piece of wood in my living room and three cans of paint I'd like out of the way. I have measuring, cutting, gluing and painting to do. Jealous? Me either.
How do you get your second wind to get to the home stretch?
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You know I can help too if you need it! After this last bit is done we can take as long a break as you need. Stop watching those DIY shows and getting more ideas while you're at it :-)
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry you are feeling "rode hard and put up wet"...reading that gave me sympathy pains! Why don't you try taking some progress pictures and compare it to the before shots? I think that might give you a better perspective on how far you have come and how glorious the finish line will be! I can't wait to see the finished product! Your posts have been inspirational, really.
ReplyDeleteI totally feel you on this one. I feel like for the past two years or so I've done nothing but focus on projects and I'm just done. I have absolutely no energy or desire to work on my own home because my focus has had to be elsewhere, and that's depressing in itself. My projects have had a time constraint to them though so I had no choice but to finish them, and as sad as this sounds, I tend to thrive in those final days when that happens. Not at all healthy though because it causes too much stress. But my own home is a perfect example of how I've "tapped out" because I don't even want to begin. It's like I don't have a switch -- I don't want to start and when I do start I don't want to stop. Gah!
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