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Happy August everyone! I hope you're ready for an awesome month. I know I am, dammit.
I haven't shared this and I'm not going to go into too much yet but if you could say a few prayers, release good vibes or whatever your form of positivity entails, I would be ever so grateful as I go in for some further testing tomorrow. I will share more as I know more and the backstory but I can't mentally handle well intentioned people sharing horror stories right now. I hope you understand. My mental health is well beyond tapped.
I was up for 48 hours with a panic attack from Thursday or Friday on. I haven't had an attack that bad in years and it is coming and going which sucks. Racing heart, zero sleep, icy limbs, almost passing out, racing mind no matter what the distraction, crying and all of the fun stuff. I was able to get about 2 hours the following night/morning. I was completely exhausted and nothing sleep aid wise ever works for me. The second my eyes closed, my mind would race, spike the adrenaline and that was that. I've never listened to so many meditation stories in my life. I'm praying by the time you're reading this that maybe I got in a good 4-6 hours.
On top of that, the Mr wasn't feeling well either, went to a pharmacy clinic and got diagnosed with an inner ear infection. So he's on antibiotics and a nose spray.
We are just a hot mess over here.
On a happy note, my bestie celebrated a milestone birthday this weekend. I'm bummed I couldn't be there to see her but tried to send a bit of party to her by decorating the inside of her box o' gifts. We were there in spirit!
That's about all I've got and I can't guarantee being around much this week depending on how much sleep I get. The only 'upside' is I lost 5 lbs this week without exercise because I was barely able to clear 1200 calories.
What did you do this weekend?
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Sending good vibes your way.
ReplyDeleteSorry you are both having a rough time. I have had shorter term anxiety attacks since my body is moving into pre-menopause and was recommended Hyland's Calms. It helped.
ReplyDeleteI spent last week on a family vacation at a place out in the boonies with no internet. I was bummed by the no internet, but it was nice to a have a family vacation and get out of town for a while. We did a lot of outdoorsy things and saw some amazing scenery. Added bonus was that we were at a high enough elevation that the temperatures were equivalent to what I have at home in the fall so we could go outside without bursting into flames.
ReplyDeleteI'm sending you good vibes - I hope your tests go well. I'm trying really hard to push my upcoming health stuff to the back of my mind. I've done it before, no reason to think this is any different, and nothing I can do about it until my appointment on the 9th. As it gets closer I'm having a harder time shoving it down.
You should share only as much as you feel comfortable with, and only as much as will be beneficial to you in terms of your mental health as well. I'm sure we all understand the need to keep it private and not being ready to talk about it. Just know that whatever you do choose the share, you have a supportive readership here.
Sending good vibes to you both.
ReplyDeleteSending good vibes to you both.
ReplyDeleteIt was a fantastic birthday and I thank you for making it all the more special! You were most certainly there in spirit! I return to work tonight so I spent the morning writing thank you cards and getting prepared to return. I only have two days to work though and then I'm off again for my usual schedule so it's a great way to return. I'm praying for you every day and hoping you will get concrete answers and instructions to help take some of the stress away. You've dealt with too many unknowns to allow for any type of calmness. Big hugs my beautiful friend. xoxoxo
ReplyDeleteSending you peace and light to bring you comfort for the days ahead!
ReplyDeleteSending prayers ! Health issues are no joke.
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