Monday, December 19, 2016
It's finally happening!
Well, things took a bit of a turn. On Thursday, I heard the Mr gasp and then say "I can't believe what I just read." He said my cousin just posted she was sick. Now she's a bit of a drama type so he dismissed it but I knew she wasn't lying. Given my stress meter (from excitement as well as feeling an extreme time crunch) left me with extreme nausea even before my de-stressing massage, we knew having Christmas with all of my family was a no go. I know my immune system very well and it was tapped despite taking precautionary measures for 10 days. So the Mr informed my mom and aunt we wouldn't be at the Christmas get together. Mom was disappointed but understood, aunt was initially perturbed and said we were overreacting because her daughter was just being whiny. Didn't really matter, decision had been made and I was fine with it because I knew the grandma we were having the gathering with would understand. The next day, he woke up to a message saying aunt checked with her daughter about how sick was she really and she said she had a snotty nose so we should stick with our decision not to come. We rescheduled with my grandma and will get together with her after the holidays. But Friday we were able to have Christmas with my mom and it was great. She said obviously they were all disappointed and some people might think we were overreacting but she wouldn't want our trip ruined by that because she knew I'd been sick over the holidays the past 3 years. So all was well on the family front and we enjoyed a nice 6 hour visit and I'll be honest, the Mr and I both had to remind ourselves it wasn't real Christmas Eve! It was wonderful and we enjoyed our time together. I sent her home with cinnamon rolls for Christmas morning and I have flowers being delivered to her on Christmas Eve. I know it will be weird just being the two of us especially on Christmas Eve and later on Christmas Day but I'm thankful I gave myself that gift this year. We've been working so hard the past few months and this is our reward.
I am looking forward to this week and soaking in all of the wonder of Christmas in a small town and a new place. I think we may even watch White Christmas and I don't think I've ever seen it. I know, I know. I've never watched It's a Wonderful Life all the way through either because it heavily annoys both of us to the point of needing to change the channel. We even bought a Christmas puzzle to put together and I haven't done puzzles in...well, a long time. Probably since I was a teenager and only because forced.
I vacuum sealed some meals to bring with us since the town we're in has limited options and being Christmas week, I'm sure they'll be super busy. I like the option to walk away and have a good meal waiting on us. It's all about being chill...something I don't know I've ever experienced during this week since being an adult! The Mr and I will celebrate being together 25 years this week as well so I'm sure we'll have fun reminiscing about old times while the Christmas music plays and *hopefully* the snow gently falls. (I hope I didn't just jinx it.)
I have always dreamed of a true old fashioned Christmas and I'm doing everything possible to make that happen. My heart and soul need it. It's a gift I think everyone should give themselves just once if they find they've lost their Christmas spirit. To be somewhere that you've never been or enjoying a new event or town to renew something that gets lost in the sameness that can be the holidays. It's not to say traditions aren't important, you know they are to me. But sometimes you feel depleted by life and it's okay to say "this year, I'm doing me and I just have to hope you'll understand." We lined up a great house sitter who needs a break and I've pre-cooked Christmas dinner for him and have a few presents under the tree from Santa.
I'm unplugging this week. It's part of the gift to myself. So the next few days will be light stuff because I know you all are busy too.
What are you doing to take care of your soul this holiday week?
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