Tuesday, March 29, 2016
Back to the old rule book
Well, we were certainly gung ho about that plan at the time. We had good intentions but you know what they say about the road to hell and all. After basically wasting the first two months of this year on a program that didn't work for us, I felt completely defeated. I broke my body (literally) and my plan had to be dialed down on the strength training front. I did some tweaking and 3 weeks into mine, I was still not losing anything. (If this is where people are going to start urging me to cut out a food group or something like that, please don't. We need to do what is right for our lives and that isn't right for us.) We knew we had to get back to the things that were working for us initially when we were both over 400 lbs...
We decided to break out the old Paul McKenna DVD's to see if we could glean the message that first inspired us so much back in 2008. I'll admit, the set up of the cheesy presentation was a little more distracting than it was even then. Several things jumped out at me but most importantly, this sentiment he shared:
"I've noticed something very interesting about people who are overweight. They think about food all the time...except when they're actually eating it and then they shove food into their mouth as fast as they can!"
This had become me. I never really considered myself a fast eater like the Mr had struggled with but sometimes I would say out loud to myself "slow down, it's not going anywhere!" If we were ever going to master still being able to have what we wanted on vacation without it taking longer than it should to get the weight off when we got back, mastering eating consciously had to be high on our priority list. That is what we spent last week doing. Easter is usually a big downfall for us. We still do Easter baskets and no, it's not worth it to us to change that. It's a once a year thing. But we could be smarter about what we chose to eat along with the basket so I made lunch at home and even when the day went in the crapper and I didn't have it in me to make dinner at home, we got a sandwich and a tiny bag of chips where we would've normally just ordered a pizza at 3x the sodium. Compared to other Saturdays, sodium was probably 35-40% lower and that in itself was a victory. I know it would've been less if I'd made dinner at home but this was our first weekend doing this so I have to consider it a success along the way to a better mindset.
Easter Sunday wasn't bad calorie wise at all compared to Easters past. I pre-planned my calories and stuck to them. I knew I'd have my annual ham sandwich, a serving of my homemade mac and cheese, a little baked beans, 2 crackers with a little cheeseball and my water. The Mr and I agreed we would kick each other under the table if we saw the other eating too fast but that wasn't necessary. Take a bite...chew to mush...drink of water...repeat. By the time we were done, we felt like we'd gone back for seconds and that's exactly how you want to feel on a day when there is tempting food all around. I may have had 3 jelly beans off of the Easter platter I made but given I burned 1275 calories that morning, I wasn't going to beat myself up over it. I also had some sugar free banana cream pie which was factored in as well. Since I made it, I knew it was made with skim milk and sugar free banana cream pudding so half the family diabetics could enjoy some too. (I don't tell them that because they'll avoid it like the plague. *rolling eyes*)
The only time I really kind of messed up is when I wanted to enjoy our Sunday night snack that I'd been looking forward to all day. It had been an exhausting day and all I wanted to do was sit back and savor that time with the Mr and exhale that the day was over. Instead, he was screwing with some TV issue and I sat there with some resentment that what I made an effort to time out for us was wasted. So in anger, I just snarfed it down and didn't even enjoy it. I could've just eaten it slowly myself and let him do his thing but I didn't. Notes for the future, I guess.
One thing I always tell my mom is no candy for Easter. It's too close to our vacations for my liking to work off two baskets. Well, she got us a gift card for a restaurant and these guys...
I smiled and thanked her for them and told her she didn't have to do that. I could've done what I've done before and lamented over the fact that she didn't listen (though we didn't talk to say "no candy this year"...I just assume she knows its a standing thing.) But rather, I appreciated that I'm still her daughter and just as I like tradition, so does she. She doesn't have to know that I had the Mr take them into work with him because we just can't have that kind of temptation in the house right now.
1100 extra calories in my gullet just isn't in line with our goals right now. I feel bad and in years past, we've said 'eff it' and eaten it anyway. But I'm tired of having that lack of control or having a reason to eat something with justification because someone was nice enough to buy it for me.
So for now, we are going to try to get this mastered so that it can be applied on our high cal day and vacations. Even though our portions are in line 6 days a week, it's only going to help us. My system will hopefully appreciate a well chewed meal instead of hunks of food coming down. It's what helped us lose our first 100 lbs and it's something we know we have to get back to.
Are you a fast eater? Do you think about food a lot except when you're actually eating it?
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