Friday, November 2, 2012
Mountains vs. Molehills
Our cardio "stations" are the treadmill, aerobic step and the rower.
I'd love to say we got this because we wanted this fancy schmancy water rower but nope, it was the only one that could hold my close to 500 lb butt back in the day. (I call that the "fat tax." Having to spend twice as much or more on a piece of exercise equipment because you're over the weight limit by an amount you don't want to risk.) I used to do this with my legs on the floor basically straddling the tank and rowing that way because my big ol' gut would crush me if I tried to strap my legs in. God I remember how uncomfortable that was but looking back that had to be comical the 2x I attempted it. It was like as I was rowing forward, my gut would only allow me to go so far and then bounce back.
About the past 2 months, I just strapped myself in and did it like a normal person without even thinking about it. The first time I did it, I thought "I know I can do this, dammit!" I strapped in and while there's still some goo in the center like a Cadbury egg, I can row forward and not knock myself into last week when I do! While I realized what a milestone that was when I first did it, I didn't give it the proper recognition. I guess because I felt like "so what, it's how normal people do things" but when I did it this week, I had a bit of a flashback to the old days and remembered how far I've come. I remembered the frustration and yes, tears. I remembered feeling like I would never be able to strap in and do it the way it was meant to be done.
I think of all of the things I want to do but still have so much weight to lose to be able to do them...really good, fun things that I'm deliriously irritated that I can't do yet. But I need to appreciate overcoming the molehills as well as the mountains or else I'll never appreciate all of the pieces that make up my life.
What molehills have you overcome? What is the mountain you're looking forward to conquering?
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Labels: Deep Thoughts