Monday, July 18, 2011
Up and down and all around
It's all part of this loverly transition phase. One minute I see the progress, the next I only see how far I have to go. I think, "wow, you've lost 183 lbs!" and then "wow, you've got 130-140 to go!" This situation was probably exacerbated by signing up for Ideeli and seeing I am nowhere near fitting into the few pity 16's they throw at the slightly above average population. Fashion is for sadists apparently. Hmm, I wonder if they make full body head to toe Spanx. Would it look wrong if I just showed up to a family reunion looking like this?
In addition to that, we were invited to an impromptu family dinner at one of the highest sodium steakhouses down undah. I was able to work the dinner in coming in perfectly on all nutritional fronts but still had tinges of guilt over it. WTF!? I feel like "NO, you should be a machine! You should eat at home since it's not a high cal day and miss out because you could start a pattern!" I know I'm not starting a pattern! IT'S ONE DINNER OUT! No, it wasn't planned but good Lord, it's called being flexible and smart! We're not going back to eating like crap both days of the weekend because we know that gets us nowhere and we haven't done that in like 2 years or something and that's not what was happening. We exercised before we went (a real butt kicker too!) so it's not like there was some rule we broke. "Listen to the facts Mrs...you ate within your calorie, sodium, fiber and protein range and got in MORE water than you normally would on a Sunday!! You ordered your steak with NO seasoning (salt) and they delivered. You SPLIT your meal with your hubby and got a PLAIN sweet potato. You ate NO bread (310 cals per slice!), no deep battered onion that was sitting in front of your face or cheesey fries being passed under your nose...this is to be celebrated, not be made to feel guilty. Just because everyone else ate like crap doesn't mean you need to and you didn't. You also didn't feel the need to stuff your face full of crap and then talk about how you needed exercise when you got home. You already did it and you ate as perfectly as a person being paid to do so there. Ease off of yourself!" (Self talk done! LOL)
There are just stupid days where you feel like you have no control over anything and nothing necessarily even happened to throw you into that mode. I know we're still working our calorie range and mixing up our exercise. I know we're doing all we can...we are most certainly walking the walk but dang if your brain just doesn't screw things up for you sometimes hence the reason I tell people this is 90% mental!
Do you ever have days where you can be doing everything right and still feel vulnerable to the journey ahead of you for no logical reason?
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