Tuesday, May 17, 2011
"Naming the Baby"
I would be comfortable with a 20 pound cushion. That means I would have 50 weeks to lose 83 pounds or 1.66 pounds per week. Easy! Totally doable! Not. I burn a TON of calories during workouts (800-1100 minimum) and I am vigilant about tracking my food paying special attention to fiber, sodium, calories and water intake. Despite never missing a scheduled workout, doing strength training 3x week, being an angel 6 days a week and having the numbers work out to a 3-4 lb loss even INCLUDING high cal days, I consistently average 1 lb per week in weight loss. It is beyond frustrating. The only other adjustment we can do is cut back the high cal days which we have both agreed to do starting twice a month where I'll be cooking those days just so we can be sure what we're taking in instead of guessing. If this has been the missing link then we'll be all the better for it.
So while I would LOVE to say "I'm doing the 83/50 challenge!", I am petrified if I name it, I will jinx it. I'm not sure that I want to throw out an official challenge declaration and put the additional pressure on myself. I know how that goes from numerous failed attempts in the past and I end up feeling like I failed even if I did everything right and I've really tried to take unnecessary mental constraints off of this journey. Conundrum. I desperately want to be one of those people who can do that and at the end of the month/time period say "goal reached!" but history says that's not who I am regardless of effort or motivation. Boo.
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Labels: Deep Thoughts